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I cant stand my car any more..... its not rly the car... its just not have any fucking money in my pocket.... i am sick of living off my parents.... i have turned in tons of applications everywhere... and still no answer back.... i cant afford the suspesion setup i want and its pissing me off so fucking much..... i can only afford KYB and i don rly want them at all.... i dunno what to do about my engine swap.... everytime i turn around i heard shit about another one...a nd i cant afford no B18C5 and i dont rly want a B16 becuz everyone has one and i dont have th emoney to really build one up.... there is so much shit not goign to together on my car..... i just finished the fucking interior perfect... then i had to tear it all back apart becuz i forgot to put in my speaker mounts.... and sunday was my birthday, and it was the worst birthday ever.... my g/f had to go to the hospital.... i got ditched by my friends..... and i am so confused about me and my g/f's relationship.... i am on tons of meds i dont want to be on... i have so many other projects i have to being finishing my dad is freaking out about them on me.... i fucking hate my money problems, i hate my relationship problems, and i hate my birthday this is a horrible month for me.... there is just so much more fucking shit that is going on i cant explaine.... thx for listening guys...