Some people just don't get it (me)

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well here is how the story goes: i met this girl few years ago, and we stayed best friends for a while then i kind of fell for her. i had a talk with her last year about us being togheter, but her situation with the parents wasn't so great and we decided to stay best friends, because she knew that we might argue about her situation with her dad. So this year she moved out to college, still in cleveland and she lives in a dorm. She came few times over at my place for few times (nothing happened), and then i started falling again for her. This sunday i went to her dorm to visit her and everything was ok, then we went out for a ride in the park where i kind of felt we were closer than just best friends, but on monday she seemed to be so cold with me, and again today when i called her. i don't know but this time is a bit different, i'm starting to lose sleep over this issue, and even worse i can't focus on anything. i'd talk to her again, but i'm afraid she is gonna see me like a "desperado", or i did not get the message last year. i really don't know what to think, and i don't have the experience of reading girls. if you can't help me that's ok. i just wanted to get this off my chest.