suckiness

[JDMFantasy2k]

well this place is dead tonight, so i think i'm gonna vent and share some shit with you guys.

Today sucked because i had to put my cat, spot "kitty", down. She hadn't eaten in over a month and was barely drinking and the vet said her kidneys were failing and she just didn't have any will to live. So after having her for 10 years since she was a kitten i was just crushed. I mean, she was my baby, she reallly meant a lot to me. I cryed so much, especially when i was holding her when they did it. So my mom was in jesus mode (she's an unbelievably devout christian), and i just shut her down hardcore. i'd get into it, but it's long and there's no point. So basically this year has sucked so much dick it's rediculous.

1. my dad dies
2. i lose my g/f kiara, who helped me through my dad's death
3.my friend's dad dies
4. get my g/f lauren, she goes home to Arizona
5 Kitty dies.


seriously, the only thing that makes me happy anymore is the rice rocket (which has been being good lately, thankfully) and Lauren (when i can actually talk to her). I swear is something were to happen to either of them i'd probably slit my wrists.

oh and another thing, i have a college entrance exam at New England Tech tomorrow, perfect.

sorry i'm posting all this bullshit but i just feel really sucky and needed to vent a little, once again.