Need Advice/Comments.

[Rob]

Alright...I normally don't like to bring my touchy personal business into the public but I'm really confused and upset right now and I can use some comments from all of you. For those of you that I have talked to on a personal basis know that I am divorced and have a daughter.

Well..ever since I got out of the Air Force back in Nov., I have been in financial fuckdom up until recently. I have a financial obligation for child support that I had not been able to pay and now I'm about 7 months behind. This past month I was able to get caught up on alot of critical bills and I will be able to start paying child support next month. It will take me a while to get caught up but I think I should be able to do it. Anyway, I got a call tonight from my ex-wife's husband (who I am cool with) and he told me that the child support agency contacted them and said that they are gonna be setting up some kind of court date..whatever I don't know..I have to call them tomorrow to find out what's going on.

Now that that's out of the way, here is my dilemma....while talking to my ex's husband, he asked me if I would consider letting him adopt my daughter that way I wouldn't be financially responsible anymore and I don't know what to think....before you make any comments, let me give you some details:

A) My daughter doesn't know I'm her father thanks to my fucking piece of shit ex...when I got divorced my daughter was 6 months old and I was bouncing back and forth between going to Saudi and Korea so I wasn't around her and he was. My wife didn't try to keep me in my daughter's life at all and let her think that this new male figure was her dad.

B) He is a good father to her and has raised her from the time that I got divorced. He is all she knows. As much as I try to be in her life, she is so impressioned that he is her dad that when I do try to show a presence, she just thinks of me as a "really good friend"

C) I am an asshole and a piece of shit and I think that it would probably be better if I just back away and let her be happy in the home that she's in......

and I'm not a very emotional person but fuck this is tearing me up.....

That's all I can type for now since I'm starting to really feel closed up at this point.....I guess just let me know your comments......