[AkimboStylee]

no you know what sucks, i was always the fat kid, that had to be super sweet and nice, cause all the stuck-up-im-to-good bitches were im from cant look past the outside to see whats on the inside. why is it that in the movies the lame loser guy always scores with the hot "cheerleader" type girl, but in real life, you know that would never happen. the only "DATE" ive been on is my senior prom where i got asked to go with a group of these girls i knew only out of sympathy cause i was that nice guy and couldn't get a date. all through highschool i tried to being super sweet and the girls wanted assholes, i tried being an asshole, but the girls wanted the super sweet guy. and to top it all off, about 5 or 6 girls i knew in high school got pregnant, and they had tlaked to me and said that they made the worst mistake of all, seeing that i would not leave them all alone with a child(if i got them pregnant), and the fact that they got pregnant the married the guy and are unhappy cause they are not in love.
when i go to my reunion, it is pay back time! why, cause i have money, a nice car(when i graduate in a year my parents are buying a car for me depending on my grades!)(but i will be paying them back so i will earn the car), and i am the not so fat kid anymore, i just want to walk in thier, and be one of the most successful people that the people didn't know existed. i want to graduate Orlando CUlinary College with Summa Cum Laude honors (4.0, presidnts list, honor society) and be making that fat cash like 6 digits a year, i want to own my restuarunt, and when i goto the reunion, if any of those bitches that wouldnt look past the outside start saying how much they liked me, i wanna just drop kick them in thier ******* jaw and say "OPEN YOUR EYES BITCH< YOU HAD THE CHANCE, BUT KNOW I ONLY SEE THAT YOUR ONLY INTERESTED IN ME CAUSE IM LOADED, WHAT ABOUT SENIOR YEAR WHEN I WAS THERE BY YOUR SIDE, HUH WHAT ABOUT THAT, THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ENOUGH TO YOU TO PROVE THAT I COULD HAVE BEEN THAT ONE SPECAIL SOMEONE"



sorry to ramble on but that is how i feel about this subject, it is bullshit, and will always be bullshit! sure you will find that special someone, but i found that special someone, in y sophmore year of highschool, we wee good friends, and i almost hade the chance to be with her, but her friends siad that i was "not here type" AKA he is fat, how would look when you are out in public. so i just said f it and said for her if she believes her friends go ahead, but i hope you know that i i will not forget you!

i also found out that i am not afraid of rejection, but more of the fact of humuliation, why cause i read what the rejections were, and some how i knew they only cared about apperence. ok im done sorry to make such a long ass post but i am sensitive guy and have been through this before, and will be through this again